Troubling dreams return

When I lost Daddy, for a long time I’d dream he was with us and I would grab him and tell him what was about to happen, as if I could stop it from happening. Of course, I’d wake up crying. It’s almost been 15 years and I still dream of him, but I’m. Not grabbing him in panic like before...I’m just trying to enjoy every minute he is there. I suppose it’s part of grief. 

Just this last week 3 1/2 months after losing Momma, I’ve began to have similar dreams. Previously I’d just dream she was there. Now I’m grabbing her telling her that she’s passed... and begging her to stay. 

San Augustine Tornado April 24, 2019

The evening of April 24, 2019 I was watching weather approaching us. Around 11:20 I was on my phone watching the weather. I detected rotation just Southwest of San Augustine. At this time I posted online an alert for family in the area. 

It was indeed a tornado. It hit the main intersection in town and did some pretty intense damage.

Reports from Channel 13
https://abc13.com/possible-tornado-rips-apart-homes-businesses-in-e-texas-town/5270009/

https://kicks105.com/tornado-strikes-san-augustine-see-videos-of-storm-and-damage/

Drone footage

Hail Maps link

http://www.interactivehailmaps.com/browse-hail-events/

I just stand

I just stand

I just stand not knowing what to do 

completely lost without you 

I just stand

I see your things right there thanks for what you cared I cannot touch them I just look 

I just stand

I think of the comforting words you'd give me 

Telling me everything would be OK

I just stand

My tears flow unending

I’m drowning in the thought you're not here

I just stand

Where are your arms to soothe me

Where is the sunshine of your smile

This hard ache will not go easy

I just stand

Jan 28, 2019