Wednesday, May 15, 2019

Troubling dreams return

When I lost Daddy, for a long time I’d dream he was with us and I would grab him and tell him what was about to happen, as if I could stop it from happening. Of course, I’d wake up crying. It’s almost been 15 years and I still dream of him, but I’m. Not grabbing him in panic like before...I’m just trying to enjoy every minute he is there. I suppose it’s part of grief. 

Just this last week 3 1/2 months after losing Momma, I’ve began to have similar dreams. Previously I’d just dream she was there. Now I’m grabbing her telling her that she’s passed... and begging her to stay.